Ps.73:23-24 “Yet I still belong to you; you hold my right hand. You guide me with your counsel, leading me to a glorious destiny. Whom have I in heaven but you? I desire you more than anything on earth.”
Are you familiar with the dot-to-dot puzzle, where you need to connect the dots to see the image? Interestingly, many people approach life like it is a dot-to-dot puzzle, trying to connect dots and wondering where things fit. Yet God is calling us to connect to Him because in Him everything else connects. There were things in my life, perhaps fifteen years ago, that I had been puzzled about. But as I connected with God and trusted God despite the doubts, fifteen years down the line I can see that everything is actually connected in Him. If I had stayed where I was, insisting that I must connect all the dots first, nothing would have happened. You just need to connect to Him and trust that in Him all the dots connect.
On the subject of doubts, I honestly think we should all be grateful to Thomas and not criticize him so much. If Thomas did not doubt, we will not have the answers we have today. When Jesus first appeared to the disciples, Thomas was not there. Thomas did not believe when the other disciples told him they had seen Jesus. He insisted on getting his own proof. Jesus showed up and gave Thomas the opportunity to get the proof he wanted. John 20:29 “Then Jesus told him, ‘You believe because you have seen me. Blessed are those who haven’t seen me and believe anyway.'” From Jesus’ response, we see that Jesus puts a higher value on faith than on physical proof.
Another important thing that stands out from the story of Thomas is, the fact that your doubt does not mean God does not love you. God loves you inspite of your doubt. In fact, seasons of doubt can lead to great spiritual growth. I have had times in my life when God, through my doubt, helped me grow deeper in Him. So, there is a good side of doubt.
The first of the three good sides of doubt we are going to be looking at is, doubts drive you to God. We see this in the story of Thomas, and of Asaph. Asaph begins Psalm 77 by saying, “I cry aloud to God. I cry aloud and He hears me.” (Ps.77:1, GNT). I encourage people to read Christian and leadership books and all. Yet as important as reading is and being in fellowship and in a small group. What doubt does is, it goes to our core and makes it just about God and us. Doubt forces the individual to face God by himself. There is a lot of support you will get from the group, a lot of inspiration from the books, and a lot of anointing from Church. However, those boggling questions will only surface when you are alone with God.
Prayer: Holy Spirit, guide me with Your counsel, lead me to a glorious destiny, in Jesus Name. Amen!